Once again I feel like I need to put something out there. Thoughts, emotions and the like. The problem, as usual, is that I am not certain what to discuss.
What are people interested in these days? Doubtful that I am one, at least not for many. Yet here I am trying to be interesting. Or am I? Maybe I am just bored and need something to do and this is today's chosen distraction. Yes, I believe that makes much more sense. I do get bored a lot more then I would prefer. There are days when my only option is just to go to bed or end up wandering my home endlessly. Even the things in my life that I enjoy do not always hold my attention. It sucks, of this I am quite aware.
The underlying issue also causes me to have trouble doing everyday tasks. Many would consider this to be lazy and to some degree I understand that reaction. This could not be further from the truth though. Most people when they are hungry will go and make something, or order something, you get the picture. I am not always able to do that, actually I seldom am able. I have stared at food and/or pots and pans too many times in my life, unable to perform a simple act to satisfy something as simple as hunger.
I wonder how many people who would read this would still not believe me. Quite a few I would guess. Their ignorance is too wide spread for my liking. Enough that for many years I had no idea of this my self. The long and short of it is that I suffer from Depression. Something that I may have had for years, my entire life maybe. All I know is that I am currently trying to manage it. A difficult road I assure you. I have certainly made some progress after almost crashing and burning. I still have some days. Too many of them lately though. Doesn’t help things when you need to do something specific to help oneself yet because of the issue can not always do so.
So, what are your thoughts? Learn anything about me? A Friend? A loved one? Maybe yourself? Sometimes you have to think outside the box that you are trapped in. Wow, that is a great quote. I think I will share it.
What are people interested in these days? Doubtful that I am one, at least not for many. Yet here I am trying to be interesting. Or am I? Maybe I am just bored and need something to do and this is today's chosen distraction. Yes, I believe that makes much more sense. I do get bored a lot more then I would prefer. There are days when my only option is just to go to bed or end up wandering my home endlessly. Even the things in my life that I enjoy do not always hold my attention. It sucks, of this I am quite aware.
The underlying issue also causes me to have trouble doing everyday tasks. Many would consider this to be lazy and to some degree I understand that reaction. This could not be further from the truth though. Most people when they are hungry will go and make something, or order something, you get the picture. I am not always able to do that, actually I seldom am able. I have stared at food and/or pots and pans too many times in my life, unable to perform a simple act to satisfy something as simple as hunger.
I wonder how many people who would read this would still not believe me. Quite a few I would guess. Their ignorance is too wide spread for my liking. Enough that for many years I had no idea of this my self. The long and short of it is that I suffer from Depression. Something that I may have had for years, my entire life maybe. All I know is that I am currently trying to manage it. A difficult road I assure you. I have certainly made some progress after almost crashing and burning. I still have some days. Too many of them lately though. Doesn’t help things when you need to do something specific to help oneself yet because of the issue can not always do so.
So, what are your thoughts? Learn anything about me? A Friend? A loved one? Maybe yourself? Sometimes you have to think outside the box that you are trapped in. Wow, that is a great quote. I think I will share it.
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